My Dreams

Over the past few years, I've lost sight of life and what it truly means to live. I've been so worried about getting into grad school, getting funding for my research, getting continued funding for grad school, maintaining good grades, performing well at my job, doing all of my sadhana (spiritual practices), staying healthy, eating healthy, working out, my hair (yes my hair-we've been struggling), and just simply trying to maintain that I forgot about living. I forgot to have fun. I forgot my dreams. But in the words of Mr. Will Schuester, from the BEST show ever...GLEE, life is a journey. It only has one beginning and one end and everything else is in the middle. One should make the most of the middle area. Although for some of you that may be reading this, that sounds truly cliche and maybe I should have realized it a longtime ago, but you know what...BUMP you...some of us take longer than others find our way.

For me, I've never truly had to find myself. I lived in Bangkok, Thailand for about 9 months after I graduated from college and that was supposed to be the turning point in my life where I truly started to live it. I thought that I was doing that while I was living in Thailand, but when I think about it...I didn't...at least not completely. Instead of finding myself, I found relationships and true friendship ;-) I found how happy life can be once you start letting go of the rules and regulations that you have allowed to seep into your life and just start living and enjoying whatever comes your way.

I was able to manifest some of my dreams of finally going to a REAL beach and basking in the sun on a TROPICAL ISLAND. I was able to spend time reading in a beautiful Thai park, walk around and see things that made me appreciate the life and people GOD has given me. I found that with the simplest of changes and effort, I could make things happen, I COULD make dreams happen.

I made a video to myself. A video for me to watch, if I ever lost sight of what I had found in Bangkok.

With the help of that video, the season finale of GLEE and my DEAR FRIENDS (you know who you are or at least you should lol)...I have decided to get of my funk and manifest my dreams indefinitely.

Now I am what you would call a listmaker, an organizer, a planner and so on...In staying true to my nature, I have come up with a list of things that I have always wanted to do, hope to do, have dreamed of doing. And here it is:

1. Skydiving (Thanks to my dad, it was his gift to me on my 22nd birthday)
2. Learn to play the acoustic guitar
3. Get physically fit (i know kind of common huh?)
4. Practice Yoga (the real spiritual, all inclusive yoga)
5. Go to Hawaii
6. Learn Japanese
7. Go to Japan
8. Speak GOOD Spanish
9. Learn Swahili
10. Go to Egypt
11. Camping
12. Fishing
13. Skiing
14. Snowboarding
15. Rock Climbing
16. Learn how to Garden and have my own.
17. Make candles, jelly, butter (back to the basics)
s18. Canoeing
19. Wine Tasting
20. Do a Photo Shoot
21. Go back to Medieval Times
22. Diving
23. Snorkeling
24. Cliff Diving
25. Bungee Jumping
26. Take belly dancing lessons
27. Go to the MTV Awards
28. Go to the BET Awards
29. Go/live in California. (Los Angeles, Fresno, the SAC, lol)
30. Meet Kim Kardashian
31. Learn Karate
32. Finsih reading the Harry Potter series.
33. Watch a Nascar race.
34. Go to the Horse Tracks
35. Horseback riding
36. Travel to the REAL Mexico (not the touristy all glitzed up Cancun)
37. See the Mexican ruins (Aztec, Mayan, etc.)
38. See the Eiffel Tower
39. Travel to Spain
40. See Big Ben
41. Walk the Great Wall of China
42. Go to see the ancient European ruins (Greek, Roman, etc.)
43. Go to Jerusalem
44. Visit a REAL plantation
45. Visit the Ashram that Elizabeth Gilbert, author of EAT, PRAY, LOVE, stayed at
46. Go to a Broadway play ON Broadway
47. Witness Motocross in action
48. Start my own non-profit


That is my list so far. I plan on documenting everything that I'm able to accomplish through words and tons of pics. The list may get bigger if I continue to dream and quit being afraid of making them come true, quit waiting on the right time or the right people; cause if I keep waiting the next thing I know the end of my journey will have arrived.

Now who knows what will happen in my attempt to cross off everything on this list, but thats the joy of it right??? Not knowing what will happen, if I will enjoy it, if I will live to tell the story or who I will meet???

But I plan on accepting it all and taking everything in. I hope that you will follow me as I start my journey. Who knows maybe you'll start your own and join me on this crazy ride we call.....LIFE...

NO ONE CAN LIVE YOUR LIFE FOR YOU, YOU HAVE TO WAKE UP AND DO IT YOURSELF!